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"And how did your friend Mal
sound?" Miranda asked Rona, archly as if asking about someone
she'd only ever heard stories about. It was her way of showing Rona
that she didn't have anything invested in the gig next week; that
she could take it or leave it. "Did he sound like maybe he
needed a new house?" she added sarcastically.
Rona knew why Miranda was talking
this way, because she felt the same way; but she suddenly saw the
animosity that had started to seep between them, like water leaking
into the cracks in a rock; she saw it as real as a shadow; she saw
the water freeze in the cracks and split the rock. Diplomatically,
desperately, she tried to change the tone of conversation: "It'll
be over soon, Miranda" she said soothingly, "and we've
managed so far." In her mind she knew what Miranda was feeling:
that any new housemate would, in a way, be the death of Will; the
death of his memory, and the final nullification of anything that
had existed between him and Miranda. "You've just got to be
willing" she said.
"To what? Believe?" Miranda
scoffed, but she couldn't stay angry. It wasn't in her nature. To
her anger was a poison: she saw all the herbs she lovingly tended
through summer wilting in the winter chill and she felt that they
were poisoned, that everything she touched was poisoned because
of the tension between her and Rona, and the tension was created
from so little. She reached out for the conciliation she heard in
Rona's voice thankfully. "I'm sorry, Rona" she said. "It's
been a long day at work." She wasn't ready to accept responsibility
for her own tone of voice, not yet; she had to give herself and
Rona an external cause. That would give them both hope.
"I know" Rona said. "I
know what you mean. And hey, Mal knows people. He knows people we
don't know. And they're good people, most of them. Maybe one of
them needs somewhere to live. You never know!"
Miranda felt like asking Rona how
she knew that Mal's people were good people, if they were people
Rona didn't know; but she resisted the urge. It wouldn't do any
good to ask such things. It would be poisonous.
"I think I saw half a bottle
of wine in the fridge" Rona said. "What d'you say? It
might be vinegar but it might still be good."
"Sure" Miranda said. "Why
not. I mean that'd be nice." She smiled hopefully as she imagined
the toast they'd make; as she imagined the toast that she and Rona
and their new housemate would make together.
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