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Sacha had noticed her mobile 'phone
ring when Hannah had called her, but she'd ignored it. She was outside
in the city and the dusk was humming with rush-hour and her 'phone
had been only just audible - and then only because of the way it
kicked and buzzed against the keys in her bag, rather than because
the ring setting was particularly loud. Sacha was engrossed in what
was in front of her, and wasn't even tempted to get the 'phone out
- not to answer it, and not even to see who was calling. She just
ignored it, willing it to cease ringing which, eventually, it did.
She did not deem the 'phone entirely necessary to her existence.
The event she was attending in the
city, and which held her attention so determinedly, was a rally
to mark the fourth anniversary of the Tampa incident. Sacha had
been concerned about attending the rally, after her previous experience
that had so angered her, but she decided that it was too important
an anniversary to ignore. Four years: it was a hard number to get
her head around. The incident in question seemed much longer ago
than that - and yet also, in a strange way, it was as if it had
happened only last week. Well if not the Tampa, thought Sacha grimly,
then something else like it - there were always cheap political
points to be scored through fear and the illusion of strength. Seconds
after thinking that, the speaker up on the flat-bed truck that had
been rigged with P.A. equipment for the rally made the same point.
Nothing had changed.
Sacha scanned the crowd, trying
to see any familiar faces. Not that there were many, in this town,
but all the same . . . She didn't notice any. She was a little surprised
by this: surely Brent would be here? She didn't know him well, but
he seemed to have a strong political conscience. Rona, too - or
at least she had a lot of compassion. Hannah - Sacha wasn't sure.
Hannah was an enigma. Hannah was a fighter, that was the impression
Sacha had - but she also had a strong impression that all Hannah's
fights were personal.
Phuong, though, surely? Sacha seemed
to recall a comment that Rona had made, about Phuong's parents having
been refugees from Vietnam during the war. Sacha was certain such
a background would make her intensely political. But how could she
be so sure? Doubtless Phuong was politically aware - she was intelligent,
that was clear, and for Sacha the two things were synonymous - but
Sacha realised that political awareness was not the same thing as
political involvement.
Sacha could hardly call herself
involved. She'd never organised anything. She'd never been a member
of any group. She was just one of the crowd, diligently: one of
the many who shouted for change. But she didn't shout as loud as
others: the change that was often advocated was not the kind of
change Sacha was interested in: the replacement of one form of elitism
with another. What was the point of that? She was, she thought with
a little weariness, too cynical, too suspicious, to be truly idealistic.
But wasn't her cynicism and suspicion itself a kind of idealism?
Why shouldn't she ask for something other than the same old "us-and-them"
mentality that pervaded political debate seemingly the world over?
It's us, thought Sacha, just us. Or maybe, she thought
glumly, it's just me. The crowd applauded as another speaker
stepped up to the microphone.
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