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After the protest had finished Sacha
quickly made her way back to Fitzroy, to her flat. She had no desire
at all to linger in the city: the bars were already starting to
fill up with the Friday-night, drinks-after-work crowd, and steady
streams of people wearing football jerseys were parading through
the city toward Spencer Street and the stadium. Sacha had never
taken much interest in Australia Rules Football - in any
football - but it was odd how the abstract identifiers of each team
now, suddenly, resolved themselves into locations she could place,
suburbs she could visit if the mood took her: Carlton; Essendon;
Richmond; St. Kilda.
By the time she got home it was
almost 8:30, and like the city Brunswick Street was already starting
to fill up with the slowly churning crowds of Friday-night revellers
who plunged into Fitzroy afresh each weekend: she was starting to
realise that Fitzroy on a Wednesday night, say, was entirely different
from Fitzroy on a Friday. Hoards of young men - boys, really, most
of them no older than eighteen it seemed - clogged the pavements,
strolling slowly up and down from bar to bar, looking for fights
or looking for girls, looking for anything that came their way.
Sacha was determined that it wasn't going to be her - true, she
could snap a man's ego in half with a few well-placed words, but
lately it was more effort than she cared to expend. When she got
back to her flat she cooked a lacklustre but filling dinner and
went to be early, and read until she fell asleep, the book splayed
upside-down on her bed-cover, at 2 a.m.
In Brunswick, Hannah's hair was
spread like a black halo across the pillow of her bed. Janine was
sitting on the edge of the bed, smiling hopefully down at Hannah,
and circling with her fingers the buttons of Hannah's coat, which
Hannah was wearing even indoors because the inside of her house
was colder than the outside. Janine asked her, quietly, lovingly,
if she would be too cold without it. Hannah laughed, her teeth gleaming
from within her wide-open mouth and the back of her hand resting
across her forehead as if in a swoon: she wasn't swooning, but she
and Janine had reached the bottom of the bottle of wine and with
that following on from the joint she'd smoked earlier Hannah was
beyond caring. She sighed, and Janine slid her hand down to the
next button. She didn't care for Janine, couldn't stand her most
of the time, wanted only to get rid of her - but not now. Now Janine
had a role to fulfil. True, it was a role that Hannah could perform
herself - had, would, without hesitation - but whatever. Either
way, she wasn't too fussed, and having somebody else there made
a reassuring change. Janine's hand crept further down, and carefully,
quietly, she lay down next to Hannah and kissed the palm of Hannah's
hand, and when she kissed Hannah's lips, her eyes shut, Hannah laughed
again, low and rumbling, as if to a private joke, the corners of
her mouth upturned sharply beneath the weight of Janine's lips.
Not so far away, Rona was listening
on headphones to a C.D. she'd received earlier that week. She was
meant to be reviewing it, if not now then some time soon, but she
found it impossible to concentrate on the music. It was too depressing,
and depressing music was not what she wanted to be listening to.
If her housemates hadn't been asleep (on the one hand) and studying
(on the other) she would have put on another C.D., something jubilant,
and danced through the house, cooked everybody a meal even though
everybody had already eaten, and got riotously drunk and regretted
it not a jot the next day. In her pocket she had a piece of paper
with a 'phone number, the name of a bar, a date and a time, all
written in a handwriting that was alien to her. It was all she could
do to prevent herself from pulling out the paper and staring at
the black, painstakingly neat script - that would be so childish!
It would be the dreaded high-schoolish behaviour she'd ridiculed
earlier in the evening, on the 'phone to Hannah. Well, damn it,
she thought, if now wasn't the time for immaturity she didn't know
what was. She pressed "stop" on the C.D. player, changed
the C.D., pulled out the headphones and turned the volume up high.
Her housemates would have to forgive her.
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