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Thursday passed for Sacha in a flurry
of 'phone calls to various houses, making appointments or occasionally
finding out that the room had already been taken (surely it wasn't
asking too much for an ad to be taken down once the room had been
filled?). The whole process of trying to find a new house was -
to use a cliché Sacha particularly detested - an emotional
rollercoaster. Right now, she was up; or at least, as up as she
would allow herself to get. Not that she was unnecessarily pessimistic,
she kept insisting to her sister Kate (who knew better, but preferred
to humour Sacha): she was just realistic. "Chin up, though"
Kate had said before hanging up on their 'phone conversation the
previous night. (This was closely followed by: "And don't forget
to call Mum and Dad once in a blue moon!")
Still, the market seemed to be quite
healthy at the moment: there appeared to be a large number of houses
with rooms available, and though Sacha preferred to stay near where
she was currently living simply because it was what she was familiar
with, Sacha wasn't really fussed about it. At the same time, she
was cautious about the risk of overloading herself: she didn't get
as much exercise here in Melbourne as she had in Canberra, and this
had been combining with the uncertain weather patterns of the city
to give her immune system a bit of a battering. It was hardly going
to help her if she topped that off with an exhausting schedule of
house interviews: she couldn't find a place to live if she was lying
in her sick-bed.
Fortunately, any enthusiasm she'd
had about looking for a new residence had quickly dissipated within
the first three flats she'd gone to look at, back before she'd decided
to concentrate on houses instead. Now that she'd made that decision,
it might be reasonable to assume that the enthusiasm would return
- but she couldn't muster it. She remembered all too well what the
experience had been like earlier in the year: an endless parade
of dead-end options; smiling and false sincerity and trying to out-smart
people who she aspired to one day live with. Remembering this was
fortunate in that it kept her from getting too carried away with
the making of appointments for interviews.
Really, she hated the process. Not
so much because it was exhausting, but because of that mindset of
psychological warfare that she had to get herself into in order
to perform at her peak: bending the truth to please the people she
was talking to, choosing to withhold certain information that might
shine an unfavourable light on her. In short, deceiving people that
she was supposed to be impressing. It was even worse on those occasions
when, by chance or by mismanagement, she had turned up at the place
at the same time as another prospective new housemate: there would
be polite smiles and small-talk, of course, but lurking beneath
it all was the brutal awareness that this person is the competition
- and so she (or they) would take any opportunity to show that they
were the better option to the people showing them the place: by
wiping their feet with exaggerated care and deliberation; by squatting
down to extravagantly pat the resident cat or dog before the other
person had a chance to do so. She hated it.
She wiped her nose on the back of
her hand; she resisted a sneeze. Don't get tired out, she told herself
forcefully. Too late, though: she could feel a cold coming on, she
was sure of it.
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