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Sacha hastily agreed that yes, Wednesday
morning would be a fine time for job interview. So, it was settled,
and she put the 'phone down carefully, as if not to wake it up;
as if it was all a trick and might be taken back. She motioned her
hand to take her glasses off with the intention of cleaning them
- and then realised that the reason everything was blurry was because
she didn't have them on. She was still half-asleep, but a sudden
panicky thought woke her up with a jolt: it hadn't all been a dream,
had it? She looked around. Her stomach grumbled for food. No, everything
was all rather real. She remembered the brief telephone conversation
clearly - like a white stab of torch-light through her gloomy mind
- whereas if it had been a dream, the details would already be slipping
away from her.
She stood up to go and get her glasses,
and the folds of her pyjamas rearranged themselves softly over her
legs. She couldn't believe she'd taken a 'phone call about a job
interview in her pyjamas. Well I suppose that settles it, though,
she thought: if it had been a dream, it would have been the
job interview itself which had happened while she was in
her pyjamas.
Now that the 'phone call was over,
the morning was surprisingly like any other: she still had to have
a shower, she still had to get dressed, she still had to eat breakfast,
she still had to complain to the landlord about the faulty flush
mechanism on her toilet. She fancied the idea of strolling down
to Brunswick Street - which would be relatively quiet on a work
day - and treating herself to something lavish for breakfast; but
no, she thought firmly, there was no guarantee that she'd actually
get the job: it was only an interview. Goodness knows how many other
people might also be getting interviews. But, she reminded herself,
her last job interview - for the public service in Canberra - had
been a mere formality: five minutes of polite chat interspersed
with a few token displays of knowledge of the relevant field, followed
up by an offer of a job the next week. Ah yes, she counter-argued,
but this job interview was for the private sector. It's different.
The next thing that needed to be
done, she supposed, was to find out exactly who the hell this company
was. She'd dropped her C.V. off to so many offices, she couldn't
remember most of them. A quick Google-search would settle the matter
- but that introduced another minor nuisance: nowadays Sacha did
all her internet searching at the Word on the Street; but
if she did it there it would be almost impossible to conceal it
from Rona; and she wasn't sure she was ready for Rona's enthusiasm
to come sweeping over this just yet. It could interfere with the
shroud of pessimism which Sacha tried hard to maintain in the face
of most exciting developments in her life. Oh, she wouldn't go into
the interview itself in such a frame of mind, that would just be
foolish - but a healthy dose of the stuff in the lead-up was the
right attitude. She could stand pessimism more than she could handle
the disappointment which followed on from unwarranted excitement.
And she'd been practicing her pessimism for so long, she was confident
that she could turn it on and off like a dripping tap. She probably
wouldn't get the job. They'd probably been trying to get through
to her for ages and hadn't been able to because she'd had her 'phone
off the hook. Hadn't the woman on the other end of the line sounded
less than enthused about the whole thing? They'd probably just called
Sacha to make up some quota; hell, the job was probably going to
go to somebody's friend. Isn't that the way it always went? It certainly
was in the public service, she'd seen it happen a few times: a job
has to be advertised, just for transparency's sake, so they interview
a bunch of people but really the result's a foregone conclusion.
So no, she told herself, she probably wouldn't get the job. It wasn't
worth the hassle of getting all worked up about it.
Still, it was worth doing the interview.
Just in case.
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