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Anyone else might have been struck
by the sudden feeling of only having "one week of freedom"
left; indeed, Sacha had witnessed such an incident herself when
Kate had been offered her job in the Department of Defence, back
before Sacha had even thought about leaving Canberra. That had taken
them all by surprise: Sacha, Kate, and their parents: Kate had never
really seemed like the kind of person who would readily go into
the public service, even less into Defence, and probably
realising this herself Kate had spent the days before becoming a
full-time Commonwealth employee running around town, having coffees
and drinks with friends at all hours of the day and night, generally
enjoying the prospect of having abundant free time before being
subsumed by the rigours of office-hours (such as they were in the
public service).
Sacha, by contrast, didn't feel
compelled to do any such thing, even though she assumed that her
soon-to-be working-hours would be much more restrictive than was
generally the case in the public service. For one thing, it just
wasn't her style: it was undignified; and besides, Sacha was of
the firm impression that if something had to be right now
then it probably wasn't worth doing at all.
Secondly, she'd had enough free-time
this year. She was sick of it. She'd long since run out of things
to do with it all: reading in the park was lovely, but you couldn't
do it all day, every day, and besides - you were bound to be interrupted
sooner or later by somebody blowing leaves, or spraying weeds, or
chastising (or ignoring) their children. No, it would definitely
be good for her to have something to occupy her hours. Something
that paid.
In a way, she felt like she'd had
to put a slew of plans on hold. She didn't like to call them "dreams",
that was unnecessarily grandiose, but definitely plans: going overseas
again, for one; looking for a new place to live (again: in perpetually
vacillating between staying and going, she'd once more for the time
being settled for safer, cheaper option of staying) - hell, even
buying a proper bookshelf. And more books: always more books. All
these things she'd soon be able to start doing! Despite the sudden
restrictions on her time that would soon be in place, she felt like
she'd soon be able to start really living again. For some
people that might have meant hanging out with friends, or similar
social activities; for Sacha, it meant simply being able to do what
she felt like doing, when she felt like doing it. She knew full
well that money wasn't everything, but she wasn't so naïve
that she couldn't recognise that money gave a person a hell of a
lot more freedom than she would otherwise have.
Freedom, among other things, to
buy new clothes. Sacha wasn't particularly fussy bout how she looked,
but when clothing started to develop holes it was nice to be able
to afford to replace it; and lately many items of clothing in her
wardrobe had been developing holes simultaneously. Which was typical,
she thought. Well, she told herself, it's not actually like you
couldn't afford to replace them: you still have several thousand
dollars in your bank account. Other people are far less careful
than you with their money. Other people live off credit, god knows
how. Yes, she admitted, but not me.
And that's when it hit her: she
was about to start earning money. For so long she'd been imagining
what it would be like to see some credit in her monthly bank statements
instead of just debit - and now it was about to happen. The transformation
she felt in her body was incredible: her neck straightened, her
brow relaxed, her shoulders stopped hunching. A weight had been
lifted.
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