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The interview didn't take five minutes.
It didn't take ten minutes. It took - Sacha checked her watch again
when she stepped blinking out into the street again - 21 minutes,
and around thirty seconds she estimated.
The grey-haired man had smiled warmly
and thanked her for her time, which she supposed was good rather
than bad - at least she hadn't absolutely mortified them. She'd
even made the younger man, and by extension the older man and the
woman too, laugh at one point, which was some kind of minor miracle
- though god only knows what it was that she'd said. Now that the
interview was over she could barely remember any of it: it was like
waking from a dream; and she supposed that was okay in a way, because
one thing she was adept at on occasion was torturing herself over
missed opportunities and faux-pas committed. (Of course, they were
generally only faux-pas as far as wider society was concerned: they
usually arose because Sacha thought some social rule or other to
be absolutely ridiculous, and so steadfastly refused to heed it.
Other people frequently did not share her opinion in these matters.)
One to two weeks, they'd said. She'd
hear from them in one to two weeks. Well, she supposed that was
not too long to wait - and yet it would be an agonising period to
spend not knowing whether she could afford to let her hair down
a little, or whether she should continue having baked beans on toast
for dinner and forgoing her small radiator in favour of wrapping
a blanket around herself to keep warm. Turning the radiator on in
her flat would be a luxury indeed! But it was best to remain cautious.
Especially because she couldn't really remember if she'd done well
in the interview or poorly.
She wondered if it was what American
sports-people (interviews with whom she occasionally stumbled across
on late-night T.V. when she was too tired to read) called "being
in the zone": she'd been on some kind of autopilot, that was
for sure. She could recall a strange dizzy feeling of it all being
remarkably easy: if she wasn't always the most tactful person around,
it was invariably because she chose not to be - she was perfectly
capable, when the time came, of telling people exactly what they
wanted to hear - which she was pretty sure was what she'd done in
this case. It was just a matter of suspending her morals and her
pride and doing whatever it took to ingratiate herself with people.
If that was the way she chose to look at it.
She allowed herself a small spark
of excitement: imagine being able to save money again! It would
be such a novelty to see her bank balance going up for a change.
It'd been a while - six months or more. God, had she really been
unemployed for six months? That was some kind of effort, that's
for sure. It was curious how more than a year's worth of savings
could be almost spent in only half that time, though. Well, that
would all soon be over, surely. Maybe. If this job didn't come through,
then at least the interview had proven to her that her C.V. wasn't
going entirely unnoticed - despite all appearances to the contrary.
Just don't get ahead of yourself, she cautioned herself. Don't get
ahead, don't get behind, just take it precisely as it comes.
So. Now it was time to resume the
waiting game. Well, that was one she knew how to play.
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