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"I just don't know what to
do" Brent said.
"Donate money" Catherine
told him. "Donate blood. Donate clothes."
"No, I mean in general"
Brent said. "I mean . . . I've got to do grocery shopping.
I get paid in a couple of days and there was a D.V.D. I was going
to go and buy! But now it all seems so . . . normal. I feel
ashamed to be doing any of it. Like I'm just getting on with life,
same as always, and out there in the bush there's thousands of people
who . . ."
"I know" Catherine said.
She hugged him. "I was supposed to go to drinks with some girlfriends
on Wednesday night. How am I supposed to do that now?"
"But we shouldn't even be complaining
about it" Brent said. "I mean it's kind of obscene, in
a way. Us complaining about how hard we're having it. I just feel
frozen. There's nothing I can do."
"You've done the same as everyone
else in the city" Catherine said. "You've made sure your
friends are okay. You've donated what you can. But life has to go
on."
"Not for everyone." Brent
wiped his nose. "Is it bad that I don't even want to watch
the news any more?"
"It's normal" Catherine
insisted.
"I just can't stand it right
now. I need to hear about something else other than the bushfires."
He laughed bitterly. "Fuck, isn't that a luxury! Just
being able to switch off the whole thing like that!"
"You think you're the only
one?" Catherine said, starting to get a little angry at him.
"You think everyone around the city's not doing the exact same
thing?"
"It feels wrong."
"There's nothing that feels
right at the moment. This whole fucking thing's wrong. There's
not a not-wrong thing about it."
Brent's stomach gurgled.
"Let's have something to eat"
Catherine said. "You can't possibly feel guilty about having
something to eat."
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